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So today I had a melt down. Complete melt down.

So here's the cause of my melt down.
Work.
"Friends"
Love Life.
Social Life.
and Family Life.

Ughhhh so I left Marc to be with Craig. Craig's not wanting me, and in the mist of this I admit how I feel about AJ, AJ is still in love with his ex and also, other events dealing with him is causing me to not look at him the same. I don't care what anyone says, its wierd and awkward. I'm not going...period.

Work is a hassle within itself. I would say stop the violence but then I'd be out of work but FUCK!!! Three bodies a day isn't what it do...it really isn't.

My twin just had baby #5 on the 3rd of Sept. And to her dismay I have yet to go to Chicago, and see my 16th nephew. So she blows up my phone every fifteen minutes asking did I buy a plane ticket...NOOOOOOOOO....how the fuck am I gonna go anywhere if muthafuckas keep gettin fuckin murdered!!!!!! OMGosh I am sooooo irritated now.

Friends...who has friends? Not Dayana. There's a handful of people I'd take a bullet for. But other than that...fudge it. Just like with Paris, people befriend me, gain my trust and just say fuck me. I am a difficult person to get along with but muthafuckas you bitches make it seem so easy to just walk over me. Well it may be easy because sometimes I get so lonely that I befriend people who are friends with liars, fakes and phonies...not thinking of myself. Ugh! Dumb DayDay...you're soooooo dumb!!!!!....